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Sleepy little nephew. Beautiful sunset. Caramel sundae. One month anniversary. The cute little setup my husband had ready for me when I woke up for work. Favourite shoes.

 

 

Happy weekend!

My new obsession

You may have noticed my fondness for Indian clothes, and getting to wear a fully beaded Indian lehenga for my wedding just spiked my interest even more. I love the vibrant colours and intricate beadwork on each outfit. Of course part of the attraction is that each one is hand done and there are no two alike.

Designers like Zuhair Murad &  Marchesa have blended the two worlds and created some of the most breath-taking gowns that are being worn by celebrities such as Jennifer Lopez, Taylor Swift and Blake Lively.

Taylor Swift in Zuhair Murad

Zuhair Murad

Blake Lively in Marchesa

Marchesa

Let's be honest

Many bloggers tend to share the fun and exciting events in their life through their blog. A family vacation, daily outfits, or a house tour. But what about the other half of your life? What about the messy bedroom you sleep in every night, the overgrown grass that you don't have time for, or the personal struggle that you are dealing with? It's easy to hide behind a seemingly perfect mask, but today, I want to share a piece of my real life with you.

You have seen the wedding photos, and the showers etc. with all of those big happy smiling faces...but what you don't know, is that I struggle with minor depression. It's something that very few people know about me. Not even some of my own family. Sometimes it's just easier that way. But I have felt like God put this struggle in my life for a reason, and I don't want to disregard that tug on my heart to share my story with you.

Over the past few years, there have been many events in my life that have shaped the person I am today. Moving away from home to go to University, having a terrible roommate which in turn made me hate school, moving back home and switching schools, missing my bf who was now long distance, and the list goes on. Growing up can be hard. As a teenager and young adult, there are so many decisions to be made and no time to discover who you really are or want to be. We let our parents, or friends, or even the media dictate so many things for us and we get lost in the middle of it all. Let me tell you, it can be confusing.

I had this nagging little feeling inside of me. I didn't know why. It would come and go so it was easy to ignore. It was easy to say, oh I am just tired from being a busy student, oh I am just sad because I miss my bf or my family, oh I am just having a bad day. It wasn't until recently, that I was watching a documentary on depression. Everything clicked. Everything made sense. It scared me to death to hear what these people were saying, because I could relate so well. It was also a sense of relief.

The scary and most frustrating part, is that depression will just sneak up on you. You can be anywhere, having a great time and it will just drop on top of you like a water bomb. You know that feeling when you are just shocked at first, and you stand there not sure what to do because you are dripping wet. You aren't sure whether to laugh or cry or just run away so it can't hit you again. It is hard to describe, because a lot of times, you don't even know how you are feeling or you are just void of any emotion at all. Some people cry a lot, some people sleep a lot, others overeat or don't eat at all. It's different for everyone, but the important thing for anyone who is struggling with depression, is to be surrounded by people who love you unconditionally. People who don't need answers, who can look at you and see you are suffering and stand by you through it all, who will just hold you tight without saying a word. I am blessed to have those people in my life and I know that I can make it through each day because I have them behind me and my God before me.

If you are struggling with anything, don't be afraid to tell someone. Let them be your support, and love you through it.

Bucket List Update

At the beginning of this year, I decided to make a reasonable bucket list, to force myself to try new things and be a little more adventurous. I got to check a few things off of that list over the past few months and I am excited to share it all with you. You can see my full bucket list here.


3. Get Married! (April 28, 2012)

I got married to the love of my life on April 28, 2012. It was a great day and I am loving being married after almost 8 long years of dating.

4. Travel to St. Lucia (April 29 - May 6, 2012)

After the wedding, we went to St. Lucia for a week for our honeymoon. The country was beautiful and I loved the people. It was a great spot for my first time in the Caribbean!









5. Plan & Coordinate a Wedding (other than my own) (August 18, 2012)
A friend of mine, Danielle from HelloDenj, asked me to plan and co-ordinate her wedding this summer, and I couldn't be happier. It's going to be a fairly casual event so it'll be a great way to start off my wedding planning career.


8. Go zip-lining (May 2, 2012)

One of the excursions we decided to do on our honeymoon was zip-lining. It was definitely a new experience, and something I would probably only do once.














Something that I hadn't planned, but loved, was going snorkelling for the first time. It was fun and I'm hoping that on our next trip to the Caribbean I can take a quick course and learn to Scuba dive. I am anxious to try as many adventurous things as possible this year, so this was a great start.

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Wedding Reception. Long weekend shenanagins. More wedding pics. Meeting with my first bride to kick off my wedding planning biz.

 

 

 

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