A New Year - 2015

I have not posted on here for a while, but seeing as it's January 1st, I thought I'd start off the new year by sharing a bit of what's been happening in real life. 

Previously, I wrote [this post], and to be completely honest, it's something that's on my mind every day. I have been thinking about pregnancy more and more over the past few months, and it's something that I'm really struggling with.

Family members are asking if I'm pregnant yet, or joking about when I'm going to get pregnant.
I have people I barely even know asking me when I am going to have a baby! It's a huge decision and I don't think anyone else has the right to dictate when my husband and I decide to have a baby.

On the other hand, I have secret Pinterest boards about nursery decor, maternity fashion, exercising when pregnant, but I don't want anyone to know that it's something I want so desperately right now. I just laugh and pretend it's something we aren't ready for yet. The truth is, I want so badly to be a mama!

I know I jump around a lot with posting - one day it's fashion, one day it's travel, but that's what I want this little space to be; all the little parts of my life that make up who I am.

Today I wanted to share something that has been on my heart a lot lately - pregnancy.


I'm at that stage in life where everyone I know (and people I follow on the internet) are having a baby. It's an exciting time, but it also stings a little at the same time. I look around and see all of these beautiful mama's and their growing bellies, and I just wish it was me. It's not jealousy, it's just a deep desire to be able to have that experience.

Do you ever feel like an outsider? The only single gal, the unmarried couple, the career focused one?
It's hard to feel like no one relates to you, or you can't relate to anyone else.
My husband and I talk a lot about having kids but we both know that the timing just isn't right. I know that God has a plan for our lives, and those of our future children, but sometimes it's just so darn hard to wait! I pray that God will bless us with healthy little rascals someday, and I'm sure they'll be worth the wait.

I don't want to send anyone into a frenzy, because I am not pregnant, but I have been thinking about it a lot lately; What will it be like? Will I become an emotional basket case? (my husband jokes about that) Will I enjoy it, or just wish I could get that baby out asap?! Will I experience post-partum depression? Will I have that instant, unbreakable bond with my baby?
There is so much to think about!


My husband and I have been together for 9.5 years, and married for 1.5 years, so it's definitely something that we have been talking about. We are both in the beginning stages of our dream careers, so it's hard to know how much time to put into that before starting a family. I have days where I just want a baby so badly, but then I try and cherish the quiet moments we have together and the time we can spend alone.

I just wanted to share these thoughts because I want to remember these times. To let my children know that I thought about them and dreamed about them long before they even existed. To my future babies, I love you and can not wait to meet you!

In seeking God's favor for my life, and specifically my new marriage, I found this proverb very encouraging and hope that I can be a wife of noble character. I am no expert on marriage, or how to be a wife, or a new business owner, so what better standards to live by than God's.


A Proverb to live by: A wife of noble Character 

10“Who can find a wife with a strong character?
She is worth far more than jewels.
¹¹ Her husband trusts her with all his heart,
    and he does not lack anything good.
¹² She helps him and never harms him all the days of her life.